Riding The Rollercoaster

School could sometimes make me feel like i am on a hectic ride that leads to nowhere.Lately I have been giving into my depression since my stepfather passed away and it has recently taken a toll on my schooling. Recently I have not had the urge do any of the things I most enjoy like working out or relax in front of the t.v. and let my brain vegetate. School has always been my number one priority but lately my grades have been going down hill and I don't know how to stop this on going slope of depression. It has been really difficult for me to concentrate and focus on the things that really matter, including my girlfriend. I am not sure exactly what is the root of my problem but I intend on fixing it. Every time I think of the good times we have spent with my step dad it really gets me upset that he is gone. My biological father has never been there for me and he is a dead beat. I sometimes wish god would have taken him instead of Mario( my step dad). When I think of it it gets me really angry and hurt. Life is spinning in circles and honestly I have been getting sick on things and running through the same routine. Life has so many ups and downs and it makes you wonder if it is worth living. Now a days people cannot let their children play in the front yards without keeping an eye on them. This world is so overwhelming with bad that it actually over comes the good and if you ask me I think that is very sad. It is very hard to trust anyone in this world including the t.v. God forbid I tune onto a channel aiming in the kid's audience to be talking about sex, getting pregnant,or even men being in a relationship and cheating or running away with another woman. That is just sickening.

Valetine's Day is two days away :)

Hello my people, I'm so glad all of you have been enjoying my blogs and spiritual writing. I know I have many fans and people are wondering how I celebrate the holidays. My girlfriend and I have been busting our behinds studying and focusing on the family. She has been so busy lately: helping me with my papers, cleaning, study, and pretty much dealing with my crap year round. She really needs a break and that is what I plan on giving her. In order to do so I plan on driving down to Florida and relaxing on the beach with some beers while she stays in Michigan and gets her break from me:) Instead of doing laundry for two she now will do laundry for one that week and when I arrive only will she then wash all of the clothes that I had packed and used. Some dirty clothes that she will wash of mine after her nice and relaxing vacation in Michigan from me will be: My bathing suit that I used to swim in the beautifully clear blue ocean in 90 degree weather, my 6 pairs of shorts that I was forced to wear because of the humidity, around 8 dressy night club button up shirts that I wore when my friends and brothers forced me to go the clubs when all I wanted to do was lounge on the couch and watch the game while thinking of her, and all the rest of the clothes that have stains on them from all the awesome Cuban food that I ate.

I will try not to call her while I am in Florida for I do not want to ruin her vacation from me and for I will be busy laughing, joking, swimming and drinking with my family whom I have not seen in months. This vacation that she will receive from me and enjoy also includes her not worrying about my bills for that specific week which will then accumulate late fees and double; however, she will not have to worry about it that week. I am so considerate of her feelings and mental well-being that I will take many pictures of Florida and not show her, and she will take many pictures of her fun time in Michigan and I WILL look and show jealousy that I wasn't included in her fun filled vacation in 30 degree weather.

Although I do not have much money in my pocket, giving my girlfriend the best Valentine's Day is what it is all about! And who ever said that I was a selfish guy!!!

Addicted to video games

Lately, I have been obsessed with a very entertaining and storytelling game, Max Payne! It is a very good game and in my opinion it broadens peoples imagination towards storytelling. Some people like books and others think movies bring stories to life but video games actually make you feel like you are in the persons shoes. Video games tend to bring you into the environment of the game. It could have good effects on peoples minds but it also could take it a little too far. Their are games that make people feel like they are invincible and they tend confuse reality with something as fictitious as a video game. Just because a man could leap in the air and get shot multiple times and take muscle relaxers to ease the pain does not mean people can do that in real life. Kids are becoming too absorbed in these video games. The point of these video games is to draw the consumer in and release them from reality for the time being, however, some games should be monitored by the parents so that kids do not simulate what they see in games. In my opinion, as a fellow gamer it is a great experience if you are of age and can differentiate video games from reality. People that become absorbed into movies should try to experience the world of video games because it actually has the gamer interact instead of just watch. It is one thing to watch but it is an entirely different thing to do.

There has been much speculation about the effects of video games and how they contribute to failing grades, unhealthy kids due to lack of exercise, and also social issues. Everything in this world has its pros and cons. Video games, just like everything else, should be done in moderation and also with the parents monitoring it. A person must not lose hind sight of the real responsibilities one has; video games are meant only for an hour break or so to relax and not to consume a persons life. Video games have become some what of a learning tool. They now offer many games and programs that emphasize learning and education and still allow the person to have fun. They also offer things like learning how to cook. Video games are the newest style of bringing writing and imagination to life.

Planning Things Out

This semester I am going to be a busy beaver... I am a Firefighter/ Paramedic major and I have a lot of things planned out. I am currently in rolled at HFCC in four classes: Pharmacology, English 131, Weight Training, and Bio 131. I'm pretty familiar with the medical field for I have taken a Medical terminology class and passed. I'm aware of what that class will be about and I can tell you off the bat I am very intrigued by it. I'm not much of a writer so I am dreading going to my english class, that for sure. The only study planI have for the moment is to finish all of my Bio and Eng 131 assignments as fast as possible to get it over with in the begining of the week so I could focus the majority of my time reading up on my medical class and just try to balance my time out.

I am currently working as a sub-para pro for schools in dearborn until I get my Medic licence. I have been working on my degree for the past two years and I sometimes wonder if it is ever going to stop. I sometimes feel like I am stuck at a dead end but I know it will all pay off at the end. I try my best to study as much as possible but it always feels like it is never enough. I am the type of person that needs to know the text book inside and out and I expect my test to be perfect. So when I don't do as good as I planned I tend to beat myself up and doutb myself.

Respect Blog

I treat people with the same respect they give me. I am usually a nice guy unless a person crosses that line. An example of that is, once my girlfriend and i went out to dinner and some older man kept staring at her and looking at me with a dirty face. Me, being the nice guy i am, walked up to the guy to confront him. Unfortunately he wasn't man enough to fight me alone so he got in my face with both of his buddies.Luckily, no fight was started.
I'm not one to start trouble but i am known to stand up for myself when i am being disrespected. There is no reason to make someone feel uncomfortable when a person is trying to have a good time or just minding their own business in class. Even though some people think staring at people or talking to their friends being their back it really is. There is no need to put your hands or your nose into someone else's business. People just do not have common decency. Once someone disrespects another on a deep enough level they might turn away from you forever. It is hard to forgive a person once they have been disrespected because disrespect does lead to hurt.
A person must also respect objects especially if they do not belong to them. For example, the computers in school should be respected because the staff and college are curtious enough to let the students use their tools for education. If somebody is being polite to you it should be human nature to respond in the same manner. Respect is what keeps the world in order. Without it things would be broken and people would behave in chaos.

Jumping The Gun

I'm as happy as everyone else that President Bush is out of power and out of the White House but people are carrying this Obama thing a little far, don't you think? I'm not downing the man but people are actually getting tattoos of him and he hasn't done anything amazing in office yet. They throw a giant party for the guy like he saved the world or something. What's the big Deal? He's just another president that so far hasn't proven anything yet. People are going a little over board with this. His term just started, we still don't know what to expect. Our country has been going down hill thanks to Bush and I hope we get to see what Obama means by "Change". Lets see if this guy could live up to his own hype because he has some pretty big shoes to fill. I'm just saying i hope people don't have to regret the tattoo they got because he decided to post a draft or we lose even more money. Sure he promises us a better life but we've heard that plenty of times; that doesn't mean that the man will follow through.

Like I said I'm not trying to down him but don't get your hopes up America and making something bigger then what it really is. He hasn't even started his term to determine if he's a good President. Like he said "It's time for a Change" so let's give him a shot.

My name is Nelson Estrada; I am currently a student at HFCC. I am a Firefighter/ Medic major. I am a normal kid by day and at night I am a super hero lol jk. Lately I have been stressed out with the classes I currently have. College takes a toll on people because it is a very stressful environment. This semester I am enrolled in Bio with lab, Pharmacology, Weight Training and English and I also am working part-time...talk about a work over load! The economy in Michigan is obviously doing very bad and I am currently looking for a more stable job. For years I have dreamed about getting a gun but unfortunately I am unable to because I live with my girlfriend and her family and they do not allow me to get one. In my spare time I enjoy going to the range, weight training, and playing video games. My favorite super hero is Spiderman although when I was a child my favorite was Superman. I own a lot of Spiderman memorabilia and clothing (thanks to my girlfriend). I have the best girlfriend in the world but I get her so stressed out that she is taking classes to control her anger. This is the first time I do this blogging thing and it seems pretty useless. It's doesn't make sense how people want to throw there emotions out in the open for people to read and make fun of them. Bad things happen in life, that doesn't mean I should post it on the internet to"vent". I like having privacy, I think people relay too much on a screen with a keyboard. I'm sick of winy little emo kids crying on the radio about how they hate america and their parents. If they want they can move to another country where they don't have an opinion. I'm sick of people downing where they live. No matter who our leader is we should support him. You are not suppose to turn your back on your country and make the best out of it. In the WW2 era people fought with honor and pride and look at what people have become. Sad and over dramatic, we are the super power of the world and I'm not ready to give that title up.